Sorry for the loss in time with the Engen Family. We have been so busy adjusting and growing and trying to once again regain control of our schedule.
Luca is in school and loving every minute of it. Zada is growing and changing day by day and is ready to walk. We are so ready for her to walk because she will be much happier to try and keep up. Work is work for mom and dad!!
We are hopefully going to be able to do a charity drive in the next month to help aid people in Ethiopia. It's seems like a lifetime ago that we were there, but yet my feelings of a loss are everyday that I look back at our pictures. My social worker explained that someday Zada may have what is called survivors guilt, and it was at that very moment that my feelings were put into words. I am so thankful to have this amazing little girl in our lives, but I still feel the heavy heart that I first experienced during our van ride back to the airport as we were leaving Addis. Why were we chosen to have this miracle and why were we chosen to be the ones to be able to leave and live what we consider as a better life. I don't want to have a pitty feeling for African people because they are a wonderful people and are very proud of what they have and who they are, but I just wish I could erase the bad as far as poverty and disease and let them all have the opportunities that we are given in life. Part of me doesn't want to return to that scene for many years and a part of me wants to go back tomorrow. Either way this amazing little girl is ours forever and we are so thankful that we were chosen to be hers. If you would like to contribute in any way to our donation drive please do not hesitate to let me know. We will get the info out as soon as we are finalized on our plan and dates. Blessings to yours from ours!!